how can I tell you what happened

Easily distracted by the time,
I have no idea actually what happened,
All I know I was somewhere between reality and dreams,
That line then vanished and my beliefs changed into truths that never existed,
On top of the mountain I stood, looking below in despair,
Eagerness to reach down because I saw you standing there,
but then I forgot that line had been vanished long ago,
I still saw you standing,
And so I jumped,
I must have walked my way down but I jumped,
I must have called out your name but I jumped,
I must have asked for your help but I jumped,
I jumped so that you can catch me,
I jumped so to make the truth that I was living in, a reality for us,
I hit hard on the bedrock,
you were there only to notice,
you were there only to pity,
you were there to ask who was that person,
that line became so clear all of a sudden,
I became so aware, you didn't even know,
how can I blame you, when I was invisible,
how can I say anything further, when you don't have those ears to listen,
how can I jump again, when I have lost all hope,
how can I tell you what happened, when you didn't see me fall,
you didn't see me fall for you..

Being a Girl

Was told to dream of stars,
was supposed to be an illusionist,
but instead, was everything else.
Was told to be polite, gentle and calm,
was told to stay away from wars,
but instead, was everything else.
Was told to enjoy and not to toil,
was supposed to fall in love,
but instead, was everything else.
Was told that everything is fine,
was supposed to be beautiful,
but instead, was everything else.
Everything else other than obvious,
fought,surrendered,fought again,
lost, won, lost again,
cried, laughed, cried again,
worked, toiled, failed and failed again,
still laughed, learnt and learnt again,
woke up with the realization that its not the way it was supposed to be,
so slept again,
but then, woke up to face it all,
woke up to stand and fall,
woke up to stand again, all by herself,
woke up to take it all on her small shoulders,
woke up to broaden them,
woke up to take in all that she can,
she woke up to be A MAN..

Life science- the lost love

Mathematics is not meant for all, logics of C++ aren't meant to be logical for all. But then, there was a subject that was loved by people who hated calculations and logical expressions. It was very much scientific. It told stories about how earth evolved the life, how atmosphere was sustaining too many gases at a time. It paved a way to study about the origin and the end, about daily metabolism, about creatures apart from humans, about plants, about little fellows who work secretly in the stomach. It showed the logic in a way different from Java, it helped finding the deadliest terrorists of all, that would not be cured easily. It discovered virus. It became the bedrock of an occupation alternative to engineering. It made doctors. But some took it to a larger extent, they combined it with maths and computers to give it a new name- Biotechnology. A key to all cures and preventions. A subject that was hoped to to provide for thousands of aspiring biologists. But then, came big enterprises that build huge buildings with fascinating equipments to lure biologists but only to make them sell. Out of thousands they chose only 2 or 3, rest were left to be on their own. And again they were left with logics expressed with C++, with solutions given in numbers. The minds which once ignited with flame to cure and discover were again buried with burden of something that they have always hated. Science, that they had chosen long ago in school betrayed their lives. May be that's why its called the Life Science...